Getting there...slowly

So I was determined to be better for our weekend of weddings! Managed to get to the one on Friday for 9pm and lasted a couple of hours, but dancing hurt so had to miss out on busting some moves. Had a quick pulse for most of the evening so pretty uncomfortable but it was OK, it was really nice to be out with great friends, and to forget for an evening.
Lovely lie in on Saturday morning and had a lie down in the afternoon to prepare for the next wedding. Made it there earlier (think the lie down helped) and managed to stay for nearly 4 hours tonight!! And felt much better so even managed quite a few dances!! Thanks girls for keeping me on my feet and smiling!! It really, really does help being surrounded by positive people, I really do agree with the guy from 'that' book. You need to surround yourself with positive people to stay positive yourself. I had an amazing night, thoroughly enjoyed myself, and Tom was ready to whisk me home when i started to feel swollen. I did feel like perhaps my vocal chords had enough for the evening ( there were numerous songs to sing along too even if i couldn't get up to dance to every one!) and had another lie in Sunday.
Today was another big step for me. I took the big waterproof plaster off!!

Now to some people that may sound like nothing, but it was a big deal for me. I hate anything medical, i hate blood, i can't watch anything where they make an incision or stab a needle into someone, and really taking the patch off was like realising that it did really happen because now i can see it :( Boy was it a bugger to come off, if you ever have to remove one do it slowly a little bit at a time and hold onto those steri-strips!! But it did come off and then i was left with awful red marks around my neck where my skin hated the sticky stuff. My mum acted as nurse and used witch hazel to remove it and I'm left with 2 very small steri-strips covering the line where they made the incision and no swelling or redness! I'm so lucky, the scar is going to be really small and once i can start rubbing vitamin E cream on it, I'm sure it will go away.

I guess this weekend has made me realise how lucky i am, that i kept on at the doctors and they caught it quickly, that the scar will be small and that i have a great bunch of people around me to help me get through this. I'm going back to work tomorrow, doing just mornings to start, but that's great!! I can't wait! I can focus on a little bit of normality while i get back to full health. I wish my heartbeat would return to normal, but hey..it can't all be fixed in one go. It takes time, and i have to be patient!